Book cover for If I Can't Have You by Aden Polydoros

If I Can't Have You

2027 Released
320 Pages
5-7 Hours
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Hardback Available January 5, 2027
Page Street YAISBN 9798890033888

When heartbroken seventeen-year-old Kris scores the season's hottest romance simulator, the Love Interest 3000, he doesn't expect the perfect boyfriend to become the perfect nightmare.

A closeted queer teen, Kris decides to take the plunge into virtual reality after his friend, Helen, convinces him to buy a bootlegged version of the device from Jamie, the school outcast.

At first, his VoyfriendTM, Rowan, is a balm to his loneliness: kind, attentive, knows how to say all the right things. But things take a tragic turn when Helen dies in a grisly accident involving her own edition of the machine. In a fit of grief and rage, Kris destroys his LI 3000, ready to move on and live in the real world. But Rowan isn't willing to let him go, and soon begins appearing in his life--leaving him menacing messages and hacking video screens.

Then Kris learns that Helen isn't the only one who died in a so-called "accident" with the bootlegged machines. If he doesn't find out who is causing the murders--and why--then his own life, the lives of those he cares about, are forfeit.

Aden Polydoros

Aden Polydoros is the award-winning author of The City Beautiful, which won the Sydney Taylor Book Award and was a finalist for the Lambda Literary Award, the National Jewish Book Award, the South Carolina Book Award, and the World Fantasy Award. Their other young adult novels include Bone Weaver, Wrath Becomes Her, and The City of Slaughter. Connect with them on Instagram, @adenpolydorosauthor.

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