My Heart and Other Black Holes

A stunning novel about the transformative power of love, perfect for fans of 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher.

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution—Roman, a teenage boy who’s haunted by a family tragedy, is looking for a partner.

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together.

What begins as a shared death wish becomes a desperate chance at life. But is it too late to back out?

• Strangers to Lovers: He was supposed to be her suicide partner. But as Aysel and Roman plan their end, they accidentally find a beginning.
• Mental Health Representation: A raw and honest look at teenage depression and suicidal thoughts, told from the perspective of a physics-obsessed girl who feels like a problem to be solved.
• Dark Humor and Hope: Aysel’s wry, sarcastic voice provides an unflinching look at the darkest thoughts, finding light in the most unexpected places—and people.
• Small Town Setting: In a town that won’t forget her father’s crime, Aysel feels like an outcast. Roman might be the only person who doesn’t look at her like she’s already a ghost.